What Am I wanting

It is not  that I don't love. It is that now I feel the need to throw away my previous beliefs, or I want to, either way I am not sure.
However it seems that since my last failed relationship, I am alright with debasing my once high standards of physical manners. If that makes sense.
Let me attempt to rephrase (also I apologize if I make any errors in this, I am currently out of it).
I once felt that I should not have any physical encounters with anyone that I didn't know well, mainly because I didn't want to upset my lover. (If I could call them that considering we never had sex)
I guess when I think about it I built my entire perception of the proper way to act to some people by what my significant other dictated as acceptable. Not that they constantly told me not to do things, but I had to watch myself and avoid certain things. Like avoid talking to people who wanted to get physical.
Now though, I am battling two different urges. My urges to stay with the rudiments bestowed upon me by my love, or follow my hormones.
I don't want this to sound like a pity post or anything like that, I am just throwing my thoughts out there.

In the end I don't know.
I don't want to be the kinda of person to go fuck everyone that is up for it, but I need closure and I think that I am trying to over ride my need to feel loved with sex. =/

I don't know.