Sometimes, it takes random unrelated things to remind me that I hate. I hate people. I hate shithead, bitches, fucktards, egotist, etc.
I hate.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
What Am I wanting
It is not that I don't love. It is that now I feel the need to throw away my previous beliefs, or I want to, either way I am not sure.
However it seems that since my last failed relationship, I am alright with debasing my once high standards of physical manners. If that makes sense.
Let me attempt to rephrase (also I apologize if I make any errors in this, I am currently out of it).
I once felt that I should not have any physical encounters with anyone that I didn't know well, mainly because I didn't want to upset my lover. (If I could call them that considering we never had sex)
I guess when I think about it I built my entire perception of the proper way to act to some people by what my significant other dictated as acceptable. Not that they constantly told me not to do things, but I had to watch myself and avoid certain things. Like avoid talking to people who wanted to get physical.
Now though, I am battling two different urges. My urges to stay with the rudiments bestowed upon me by my love, or follow my hormones.
I don't want this to sound like a pity post or anything like that, I am just throwing my thoughts out there.
In the end I don't know.
I don't want to be the kinda of person to go fuck everyone that is up for it, but I need closure and I think that I am trying to over ride my need to feel loved with sex. =/
I don't know.
However it seems that since my last failed relationship, I am alright with debasing my once high standards of physical manners. If that makes sense.
Let me attempt to rephrase (also I apologize if I make any errors in this, I am currently out of it).
I once felt that I should not have any physical encounters with anyone that I didn't know well, mainly because I didn't want to upset my lover. (If I could call them that considering we never had sex)
I guess when I think about it I built my entire perception of the proper way to act to some people by what my significant other dictated as acceptable. Not that they constantly told me not to do things, but I had to watch myself and avoid certain things. Like avoid talking to people who wanted to get physical.
Now though, I am battling two different urges. My urges to stay with the rudiments bestowed upon me by my love, or follow my hormones.
I don't want this to sound like a pity post or anything like that, I am just throwing my thoughts out there.
In the end I don't know.
I don't want to be the kinda of person to go fuck everyone that is up for it, but I need closure and I think that I am trying to over ride my need to feel loved with sex. =/
I don't know.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Met Someone New
NThe other day me and my friend went to Pizza Hut to get some food.
The person who brought my pizza to me was really cute and we flirted with each other.
My other friend works there so the next day they messaged me for them.
Currently talking to them. Hopefully things will go well since my last relationship ended in hell.
They are one year older than me, kinda emo ish, and they like alot similiar things. So yea, heres hoping.
The person who brought my pizza to me was really cute and we flirted with each other.
My other friend works there so the next day they messaged me for them.
Currently talking to them. Hopefully things will go well since my last relationship ended in hell.
They are one year older than me, kinda emo ish, and they like alot similiar things. So yea, heres hoping.
What happened?
There really isn't to much to tell about what happened to my blog.
I just tried to log in one day and I was informed my Gmail account was suspended for an unspecified reason.
I let it alone for a week and then decided to try and reclaim it. I messaged them telling them what happened and soon I got an email back saying they apologized for any inconveniences.
So IDK wtf was going on with that but whatever I got my blog back.
I just tried to log in one day and I was informed my Gmail account was suspended for an unspecified reason.
I let it alone for a week and then decided to try and reclaim it. I messaged them telling them what happened and soon I got an email back saying they apologized for any inconveniences.
So IDK wtf was going on with that but whatever I got my blog back.
Friday, December 18, 2009
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