Love

Is their a difference between being in love and loving the idea of love? If I worded that right. I mean loving the IDEA of love.

In the end, is their really a difference? I mean being in love with someone and loving the idea of someone would make you just as committed to them, the relationship etc. And you would never really know if you loved them or the other. So is their really such a thing as being in love? Or is their only loving the idea of love? I honestly don't know, I believe the latter is true, or at least that it what I go think I feel.

Omnipotence

The other day something brought the thought of omnipotence to my attention. Well, not necessarily the thought of omnipotence such as the less thought of negative side of omnipotence.
Not that I have never thought about these things before, just that I never vocalized them.


Omnipotent: All powerful.
Under this definition we could just shorten it and say God, unless you have a religious problem with it....

However that is a good way of putting it, being omnipotent is being a God.
Now normally if someone asked you a question similar to "If you had the chance to be a God would you?" and the answer is normally an enthusiastic "YES!"
But in the end, would that really be something to be desired? Of course being able to do anything at anytime would allow you to have some amazing fun. But after a while the fun would wear off and you would be left alone and bored (I say alone as normally without having someone to relate to you will alienate yourself and who could possible relate to a god other than some ego maniacal narcissist). If you can simply make anything happen then things lose their worth.
If I was to just wave my hand and conjure up my favorite meal, or not just that but 20 them accompanied by a sexy model holding them then I would no doubt be tired of them within the hour.
You may disagree but the fact is it will lose its enjoyment factor.

Of course there is the matter of sex, sexual stimulation/fantasies etc which will definitely be brought up in these type of conversations. Well that is great after a while however, eventually the amount of dopamine you produce when doing so will degenerate and it will also not be enjoyable.  Atleast that is what I think.


However, as with everything regarding Gods, Deities, and any other omnipotent things there is always the paradoxical matters. Such as "Well if you do anything then you can make it so every time you do a certain action (engage in sex) then you could make it feel amazing, every time and you could make it never get old. Well I am not one to discuss paradoxes as there is essentially no way to end the discussion without an enraged "fuck you" to the opposing debater.

Learning Guitar

I decided to learn to play the guitar. Right now I am having my band teacher (who is a lead singer of scream-o band) And he is helping me a lot. I just started today, and I am enjoying it.
Wish me luck.

Blockbuster Fail

Back years ago when a Blockbuster opened up in my local town I was fairly excited. At the time I had thought Blockbuster to be a nice Movie Rental store as well as a store that catered to Gamers.
These thoughts had been well supported for many years, until recently. I am unsure why but lately the store has been crap after crap to any self respecting gamer (perhaps because the only competing rental place was finally shut down).
I walk in there about 3 months ago and ask for Left 4 Dead. It has been out for a while and seemed like an easy enough feat to achieve. Well they had it, but it was out of stock. Or should I say, it was MIA.  They had it checked in, but it was not in the back or on the shelves. I left annoyed and defeated after searching for 30 minutes or so. (I know that it could just be the store in my town)

Now tonight I go searching for COD Modern Warfare 2. They had ONE in their store and it of course it was checked out. And that just bugged me. I would expect Blockbuster to keep tabs with ''hot" new releases in the video game world. But no, or if they do listen then they must take what they here, decided the market is wrong and go with it's own crappy intuition. A new and greatly hyped game comes out and they get one of it for the store.

I am done with them.

I'm Sick

Unfortunately, it is not an illness that ails me, but my school. I am spending everyday with these same people. All of them are idiots. They all treat sports as something to idolize. They all think that they have some value in their life when all they do is idolize idiots, get high and gangbang. People disgust me. I am ready to leave this place. It does not move me anymore. It does not interest me. It does not suit me. This place can go to hell, and I will not care if I never see anyone from here again.
I am by no means nostalgic. I don't think of things as memorible. Nothing in my life has happened that I feel is worthy of note. Not even my lung collapsing is interesting.
Some days I just want to envelope a hedonistic lifestyle, screw everyone. Not having to think about anyones feelings, problems etc.

Fuck this place.

Internet

What is the internet? I don't mean literally I mean personally, philosophically. Is it what you want it to be? What you make it? From here on I will occasionally and arbitrarily refer to the internet as "2.0" If you can't figure out why then Google it or something.

For me, the internet is more of an escape (I use that term VERY loosely) . My life is filled with either mundane regimens or extremely melodramatic occurrences that are nothing but unavoidable, undesirable burdens.
My days are spent bored sitting in classes that wouldn't be challenging if I had to do the work blindfolded, and spending time home alone. The group of people I spend time with during school are not able to spend time with me (or they don't try, god knows I sure don't put forth that much initiative). Life is so, uninteresting.

2.0 is my second life, because I can live there.
I get to spend my time modding a great forum, chatting with people who share the same interest (being in a small country town most people in here barely know about computers, anime, etc.) So in that sense 2.0 is a place that is a great place, IF you go about it the right way. Of course most of the internet is filth and trash, but you don't HAVE to go to those places (even though I go).

Well I just felt like ranting.

Economics

Right now I am crash cramming / preparing cheat notes for my college class.
I know I should know the info but it is a 3 hours class with a teacher who does nothing but stand and speak in a monotonous tone.
This is annoying.

Also HF is down =( MyBB - Internal Error.
Man it has been a while since one of those lol.

Alright

Well the last one was a total bust so screw that site. Blogspot ftw.

"Made a blog. I have joined the online and often unnoticed masses and decided to do this. I guess for no real purpose honestly. I will update it daily, even if no one reads it. Pointless yes, but what the hey. In the end it may be enjoyable, entertaining, or something that relieves stress.

To my readers! (lol)

Hello. "